Hectic Friday

-Yea, this is me venting, I know, this is new-

Besides waking up at the usual 11:00-12:00 time slot, today was everything other than calm. From ordering and bringing food to my brothers (since we only had one car to use and I was going out for the day) to getting annoyed/frustrated over the stupidest things while hanging out with one of the only people that make me happy. Sometimes I hate myself for acting the way I do and I don’t really wake up and realize how much of an ass I was until later on when I can’t really do anything about it. Even when they say it isn’t my fault and everything is forgiven I can’t forgive myself because I know I should have known better not to act the way I did.

Today was actually supposed to be a pretty chill day. Went out to watch “Despicable Me” which was pretty funny and yes I admit, pretty cute. After that, had dinner at Harold’s Deli/Restaurant in Edison and had a roast beef w/ bacon bits and cheddar cheese sandwich, which I may add was ginormous. We had trouble finishing half of the sandwich…yea I know…me having trouble eating food? I was definitely disappointed in myself. To try and work off the fatty sandwich or half of a sandwich we went to a nearby park and walked around. It was pretty chill seeing a lot people out enjoying the weather. The scenery was gorgeous as well. As the night rolled in, just talking and chit-chatting away, I somehow managed to get annoyed at one particular thing out of nowhere. I thought to myself, “why am I so annoyed?”.  To cut the story short, the night ended on a very awkward, disappointing, upset mood. Driving back home all I could think about was how annoyed I was at such a stupid thing I got more frustrated (I know retarded right?). As I got home I thought of what things I normally did to clear my head. Swimming and playing basketball were out of the question since it was 12ish and so I did the next best thing…push-ups/crunches/and lifted weights. After that, I just realized how much more of a retard I was and tried to fix things. Needless to say, they forgave me and I felt a little better. Till now I still feel bad and want to make it up to them. Yay for chaos and harmony =P

*On a side note*

For some reason I won a raffle at Webster Hall that allows me to bring 10 of my friends on a weds, thurs, fri, or saturday night with free admission and open bar. I know, how the heck did I pull this off? I still have no idea. That’s besides the point. If anyone is interested, let me know and I’ll get the tickets. It’s only valid until the end of this summer so get at me ASAP, especially since I think everyone’s weekends are pretty much booked.